Dialogue With The Star

New blog~

2010-01-27T21:40:00.001+08:00

I will not be using this url anymore. Changed to http://www.sophiasimplelife.blogspot.com
Link me~

In Love With...

2010-01-21T16:57:00.007+08:00

I had been traveling to Genting Highlands frequently recently and there is one place that I must go. I can stop myself from going to First World to shop (though not much shop there ^^"), but I must have my buffet dinner in Coffee Terrace. The food there cannot be rated as very delicious and do not consist of a large variety. But, I just love it. The chefs there are nice and when I went walking around taking pictures, they will even pose for me. ^^

Porridge

Dim Sum

Beef

Prawn~

Oyster

Vege (Simple but nice~)

Variety of salad (Love the potato salad~ ^^)

Char Koay Teow (Normal price@Ala-Cart=RM 14 and they give u the whole wok during buffet)

Satay, roti canai, choc fondue, fruits, ice cream etc available there. K, great, I am hungry d. Haha. Here some of the desserts.

Strawberry Pudding

Cheesecake

My favourite spot after dinner. The night view is quite nice~

Also, went to genting with Nott frens after our exam. Had a great time there~ Love you guys! Really want to travel with them again asap. LOL.

My cousin finally got married!!! Congrats to Yvonne and hope she will do great in Australia.

Part of my dad's side family (Maybe half of them?)

Sweet sweet sweet~

2010-01-19T13:24:00.008+08:00

Finally went out with dear again~ It had been exactly ONE MONTH after the last 1. LOL. Anyway, this date was much sweeter since we had solved our problems, some problems which really bothered us ever since we began. *claps*

It was a long date, from 10 am til 9.30 pm, but do not seems to be enough, since we barely meet. LOL. Anyway, it was just sweet~ ^^SS-ing in Kitschen. I love the hat though... Haha.

Love these 2 photos~

Routine... Sundae Choc from McD

Full House, pure white, super nice. A bit expensive though. Food was not bad, just the drinks... Taste like antibiotics. LOL.

Another problem here... When will be the next date? Hmmm...

Anyway, take this as the early celebration of our 1st year anniversary~ (Ignoring the days that we broke up... ^^)

Little present for dear...

All New Me

2010-01-09T12:01:00.004+08:00

Whole new me with a whole new hair style for whole new 2010!!!

Always wanted to have fringe and perm my hair, and I finally tried it~

As expected, I look mature with the curls. LOL. Hope that the curl will look more natural asap~ ^^

Finally~

2010-01-06T11:49:00.010+08:00

The 3 main "Finally"s this 2 months~

Finally received a bouquet of roses~

From my DADDY~

Parents' 21st Anniversary present~

Ice-cream from swensens~

Finally updated my blog and changed the layout~

Finally told daddy about MH~ And... He DID NOT SAY NO!!!

OMG, I was so worried that he will not allow me to have a boyfriend now but eventually, he is not really against it. However, he gave me some 'advice' aka LECTURE.

And now, he is starting to make jokes out of my boyfriend. LOL. Most importantly, we can finally date without any worries that will see dad!!! ^^

Another finally, back with Hon~ ^^

And Finally, our another 5S6 class gathering~ Many people came back, Theng Fei, Jaq, Jia Ming, Caitlin etc. However, not many people attended. Only 13 of us. LOL. N Ms. Hing See Khee could not make it also, must seriously force her next time.

Joyce, Me and Jaq~

I am so lonely... LOL

My face looks small~ Thx Gor ^^

Everyone

简单的幸福

2009-11-28T14:24:00.002+08:00

幸福，原来可以很简单。。。

有时候，

静静的发呆，可以觉得很幸福。

偶尔放空，不去想，不去看，不去理，

周围的事物，

也是一种幸福。

今天，被好多好多的事情压得喘不过气来，报告考试功课朋友等。。。

突然就好想发呆，放空。。。

才发现，幸福原来就那么简单。

可以从无法喘息的空间逃出来，到一个只有自己的地方，

好好的呼吸，静静地让头脑休息，

竟然可以让人觉得幸福。

原来，一直在跟时间赛跑，

人与人之间的互相比较，

已经让我那么的厌倦了，

甚至，连那么只有一点点的时间，

让我逃离现实的世界，

我都可以觉得幸福~

或许，

做我想做的，

不去想太多，

才能获得更多幸福吧~~~

虽然要马上做到还有一些难度，但总有一天，一定会成功的~

加油咯！

Life in Nott

2009-11-14T12:17:00.002+08:00

I am finally back~~~ Had been super busy for these 2 months, and I am still extremely busy. LOL. Busy with Mocks, MRs, reports, microbiology, phys pharm and pharmaceutics, so basically, the whole course.

However, I am enjoying my life here. A lot of freedom~ Can sleep anytime I want... Though will still have home sick. (Shouldn't be, get to go home every friday le...)

Anyway, life will definitely have some problems such as being betrayed or boycotted. LOL. Betrayal... Hmmm... Should not say much here. Just, very disappointed. However, looking into the bright side, I should say THANK YOU for letting me learn my lesson. THANK YOU for letting me know that I should never ever trust a friend, friend can seriously turn out to be a good actor who is so bloody extremely self-centered. Sophia, just get over it~

Boycott... Not really, just feel little isolated and got some not-so-friendly coursemate. Perhaps, people do not think that they need to smile, talk or even just say hi to you. But I seriously hate these type of people. Come on la, you may be excellent in your studies, you maybe a JPA student, you may be rich, SO WHAT? What on earth makes people think that they should only mix with HIGH STANDARD people? I seriously feel like stopping those people down and ask them 1 by 1. Why the hell you guys treat me like a patient carrying fatal virus or bacteria?

Anyway, I have my own friends now, at least they will help me and we are totally happy with our lives now. You guys just go on with your GLAMOROUS life~ Life is always full of hi-and-bye friends whom we may need someday. So just stick with such a relationship and interaction when we are all happy and comfortable with it. *cheers*

Good luck to all Pharm Yr 1 in Mocks~ ^^

My new temporary hse... ^^

2009-09-22T17:45:00.004+08:00

Finally checked in to my 'new house'. LOL. The hostel is not as bad as what I expected. Kinda spacious. Hehe.

But, probs started coming since then. Keen not driving though I thought he will, so need to walk 800m everyday to campus. Hmmm... Good exe though. Haha. Then, I just realized that only me n Peng checked in, oh n btw, Peng is my room mate~~~ Hahaha~ Anyway, our parents were kinda worried bout our safety since there might only be 2 of us in the BANGLO (a not so big 1). Scary wei~~~ T.T

So, her dad came up with this plan, which is to rent a condo in Sg. Long, dunno where it is, but will take us 20 mins to reach campus. My parents rejected that offer and called the accomodation office and complained. Dad complained that they did not follow the agreement and things don't turn up like what they told us, which is the house will be occupied by 6 students. Of course, they apologised and explained. They told us that the house is fully occupied, just that those tenants will checked in on the registration day itself. So, if they did not check in as expected, we will be transferred into the on campus hostel until the house is fully occupied. So, prob is half solved. LOL. But still, I hope I can get the on campus hostel lo, since Yee will be stayin there and it will be much more convenient, but I wanna stay with Peng oso le, plus everything is being moved in d. Hmmm.... Dillema. LOL.

Anyway, here's a part of my new room, but b4 we shifted our furnitures. Will update and show u all my NEW room. Hehe. Will be sleeping together with Peng~ Wee~~~ ^^

The room

S.O.S

2009-09-18T21:00:00.003+08:00

Damn damn damn damn damn.

I can't, I just can't.

The surprise plans, future plans...

How can I actually let go?

Will even think bout you when I go Nottingham.

SP, Sunway Lagoon, 1U, CHS, Nottingham etc etc.

Teddy, ring, diary, stars, earrings etc.

孤单北半球，七月七日晴，蒲公英的约定，如果我变成回忆，A Little Too Not Over You... etc.

All are places and songs with memories. I can't touch them...

I will really collapse one day...

Pls... Forget Me or even hate me.

2009-09-18T14:55:00.001+08:00

Finally, we give our love an ending. A perfect but sad ending. I thought I have lost all the feelings but who knows after this breaking up, everything came back and won my disappointment. I thought I won't cry but I cried, just like the first breaking up.

I never know how important u were in my life and don't know how much have you occupied in my life, not after everything ends. A morning without your msg, a day without your tease, an afternoon without missing you and a night without saying goodnight and I Love You.

Are all these habits? Ya, they are but habits with love. Now, the gone feelings are back, but everything is gone. Why must my feelings torture me like this? I don't know. Guess I am too rational to even have any feelings. I am just not qualified to own any feelings. I can't control them.

Life must go on and we will meet some1 that worth our love, just like how we used to be in each other heart. Like you said, if we were destined to be together, we will get back together one day. Now, just start a life without you, and also without nobody except friends, family and books.

I will try my best to settle down, get used to your absence in my life, though it may take a long time. But now,

I MISS YOU...

Forever Love~
But in a different manner.

我爱他 --- 叮当

他的輕狂留在某一節車廂
地下鐵裡的風比回憶還重
整座城市一直等著我
有一段感情還在漂泊

對他唯一遺憾是分手那天
我奔騰的眼淚都停不下來
若那一刻重來我不哭
讓他知道我可以很好

我愛他轟轟烈烈最瘋狂
我的夢狠狠碎過卻不會忘
曾為他相信明天就是未來
情節有多壞都不肯醒來

我愛他跌跌撞撞到絕望
我的心深深傷過卻不會忘
我和他不再屬于這個地方
最初的天堂最終的荒唐*

如果還有遺憾又怎麼樣呢
傷了痛了懂了就能好了嗎
曾經依靠彼此的肩膀
如今各自在人海流浪

我愛他轟轟烈烈最瘋狂
我的夢狠狠碎過卻不會忘
逃不開愛越深越互相傷害
越深的依賴越多的空白
該怎麼去愛

如果還有遺憾是分手那天
我奔騰的眼淚都停不下來
若那一刻重來我不哭
讓他知道我可以很好

学会 --- 许慧欣

幾片落葉　孤單的很絕對　九月的風　讓心很累
我走過分手那天的街尾　紀念我深深愛過的人是誰

愛像指紋印在心裡真的很美　應該忘了你　可是我學不會

別再問我那一天才能學會　我要的世界　你不能給
有些愛情會給時間一些香味　它遲了一點卻把我的心灌醉

誰看見我流過了幾次眼淚　它滴在心裡　讓我學會
每段故事都有屬於它的收尾　它偶爾可以提醒我自己　不能退

回憶讓季節拿走他的顏色　走著走著　你就會忘記我

谢谢你，最后留给我的回忆。。。那个最美，最温暖的回忆。。。像你说的，真的很难忘。

Goodbye...

2009-09-17T23:03:00.000+08:00

When loving your another half becomes a habit, its not love anymore.

This reminds me of drinking wine. I used to be afraid of drinking wine, scared that I will hate the bitter taste. Then, I was kinda encouraged by some1 to try and the first sip is as expected, bitter. The next few sips got better and better. I did once fall in love with wine, missing it though I was underage. LOL. Then whenever I had the chance, I will just have a glass of wine to refresh the taste. However, it started to become a habit, I do not really love the taste anymore, but just as a habit, miss it and love it.

The love between me and you is like this, becoming a habit. Love do not really exist anymore. Feelings is gone, unable to search back. I tried, and it did came back that time, but it won't stay long. It left after 5 mins you slept on my lap, it felt sweet but just weird. I wanted to love you more, but the feelings is edi saturated. I can't increase it nor find it.

Perhaps, becoming a habit is only one of the reasons. Disappointment is another. Tried to wait for you to pick up my pace, but sorry, i am really too fast. If its not 2 person working together towards the future, but just one person leading, I find it meaningless. I know you had tried, you put in lotsa efforts, you really sacrificed a lot. I became really greedy, really realistic and have a bigger plan for future. Though those plans may not suceed, at this moment, I still believe it will someday. And that is why I don't wanna wait.

I am just sorry... Thanks for all the memories, I will never ever forget them. They will always be with me til the day I die. Sarcastically, last date before going to nott is the last date. Anyway, no1 can really take over the place you owned in my heart, except for my destinied 1. TQ for existing and company me through this 8 months... BBBBFF...

The blog, just leave it k...

Doing MPharm in Uni of Nottingham(M'sia)!!!

2009-08-27T13:43:00.000+08:00

Final decision is finally made!!! *CHEER*

Will be doing my MPharm in University of Nottingham MALAYSIA CAMPUS, but 2+2... ^^

Since the campus is in Semenyih, which is around 50km from my house, I am FORCED TO stay in the hostel.

I'd been through some troubles looking for rooms, first choice was a single room with en suited bathroom in the campus but all the rooms were FULLY BOOKED (WTH???!!!), and they offer me this crap room, a twin sharing room which is sooooo bloody small and the bathroom is a disaster.

Then I am forced to apply for off campus hostel. I applied for a twin sharing master bedroom in TTS5. I also realized that I can actually rent a house with friends, so I asked for help from my friend who gave me some details on the houses that can be rent. After discussing with my friends, my dad decided to call this guy, Brandon who is in charge of all these house renting stuffs. He arranged for a meet up with the house owner's FRIEND who is helping the owner to take care of the house. LOL. I was kinda pissed off when we purposely traveled to Kepong to meet this lady and she told us that the current tenants of the house will only move out in Oct. So, the house is unavailable for viewing til Oct while I need to move in before 24th of Sept.

So, we had to ask Brandon to look for another house, preferably the WIFI precinct in TTS 4. However, I found out that TTS 4 is quite far from the campus and it will take 10-15 mins to walk there and its quite expensive. So, I called the accomodation office, asking them who will be my room mate. Surprisingly, the lady told me that I will be sharing with Pek Peng. COOL~~~ So, I made my decision straight away. I will just take that room and stop looking for houses. HOWEVER, whe I called the office again for reconfirmation, they told me that they cannot disclose any information to me. So, my room mate may not be Peng. T.T Anyway, the only thing I can hope for now is I can share the room with Peng. PRAYING HARD~~~~

P/S: Sorry to all my darlings for not contacting you or replying your msg these few days. Been kinda busy with all these stuffs and marking student's hw and exam papers. SORRIE~~~ T.T

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2009-08-24T19:17:00.000+08:00

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Dear's 19th Birthday

2009-08-14T10:00:00.000+08:00

Happy 19th Birthday Dear!!!

1st Bday celebration with him as gf. Hehe. Though not reli a celebration la, just walk around in Pyramid n went for lunch, dinner and movie. LOL.

In MCD having Sundae Choc

Cappucino Cheese Cake

Outside Pyramid. But main pt is the T-Shirt. HAHAHA. His Bday present from me. Only 1 on this Earth. HAHAHA!!!

Back

The design!!! Call me designer even if it may not be very nice. HAHAHA~ I used my heart to draw de le...

The notebook aka diary. Wrote many things inside, though only 1/3 of the book. I used a few weeks to write and tat pig used 1 hr to read. T.T

Anyway, Happy Birthday Dear!!! Hope you really love the present la. And PLS TAKE GOOD CARE~~~

R.I.P

2009-08-04T04:02:00.002+08:00

It's over...

Plans are all gone...

Surprises planned are canceled...

Why do I choose this?

When I know I am going to regret?

When I know that I will never let anyone get into my heart?

I guess...

I am just tired...

I just dun wanna suffer anymore....

I just dun wanna get myself hurt anymore...

I just dun wanna make and break any promises...

And...

Dun wanna let you lose freedom...

Dun wanna let you get hurt anymore...

Dun wanna let you lose your original character...

I thought...

I will soften...

You will do tat thrice...

You know what I want...

I can change you more by doing this...

But...

Looks like...

My predictions are wrong...

I tot this is still not the final ending...

I tot this is just some challenge that I hafta go through

Before this relationship becomes stronger and can stand anything awaiting...

I guess,

I am just an idiot,

A fool hoping for another miracle.

我知道

从来没想过不能再和你牵手
委屈时候没有你陪着我心痛
一切都是我太过骄纵以为你会懂
一直忘了说我有多感动

我知道你还是爱着我
虽然分开的理由我们都已接受
你知道我会有多难过
所以即使到最后还微笑着要我加油
我知道你还放不下我
才会在离开时闭着眼没有回头
我们都知道彼此心中
其实这份爱没停过

从来没想过不能再和你牵手
委屈时候没有你陪着我心痛
一切都是我太过娇纵以为你会懂
一直忘了说我有多感动

我知道你还是爱着我
虽然分开的理由我们都已接受
你知道我会有多难过
所以即使到最后还微笑着要我加油
我知道你还放不下我
才会在离开时闭着眼没有回头
我们都知道彼此心中
其实这份爱没停过

曾经完整幸福的梦在脑海里头
我多希望你还在我左右

我知道你还是爱着我
虽然分开的理由我们都已接受
你知道我会有多难过
所以即使到最后还微笑着要我加油
我知道你还放不下我
才会在离开时闭着眼没有回头
答应你我会好好过
不让这些眼泪白流

学会

幾片落葉　孤單的很絕對　九月的風　讓心很累
我走過分手那天的街尾　紀念我深深愛過的人是誰

愛像指紋印在心裡真的很美　應該忘了你　可是我學不會

別再問我那一天才能學會　我要的世界　你不能給
有些愛情會給時間一些香味　它遲了一點卻把我的心灌醉

誰看見我流過了幾次眼淚　它滴在心裡　讓我學會
每段故事都有屬於它的收尾　它偶爾可以提醒我自己　不能退

回憶讓季節拿走他的顏色　走著走著　你就會忘記我

我們都有錯

今晚夜色正濃我開車慢慢行走
走進一片深秋
地鐵出口起了一座灰色大樓
那麼多窗口那麼多燈火
喝酒的人們嬉笑走過

在你離開之後
我像個忙碌街頭忙著擦肩而過
身邊的人稍作了停留又無影無蹤
打烊了以後夜裡安靜停泊

我們是不是變得太懦弱
該面對的時候掉頭就走
我們堅持什麼要的是什麼
為何烙了一身傷口

我們是不是變得太薄弱
該解救的時候卻一再沉淪
本來相濡以沫卻變成寂寞
我們都有錯

再見還是朋友
我們卻連個問候多年後才開口
咖啡店裡你看起來似乎過得不錯
可是為什麼說著說著
眼淚開始墜落

我們是不是變得太懦弱
該面對的時候掉頭就走
我們堅持什麼要的是什麼
為何烙了一身傷口

我們是不是變得太薄弱
該解救的時候卻一再沉淪
本來相濡以沫卻變成寂寞
我們都有錯

我們是不是變得太執著
該快樂的時候銬上枷鎖
像夜行的班車我們各奔西東
安靜的消失在夜空

假如分開會是一種解脫
為何直到現在還不斷回頭
本來相濡以沫卻變成寂寞
我們都有錯

我們都沒有錯也許只是我

听爱情走过

从来没有想过
爱到最后变软弱
你爱我更多这么说
至少你好过

春天忘了过
拿夏天阳光寄托
晒干想你的借口
我就不再忽然有回头
迷惑
回忆关掉城里灯火
一个人躲在角落
只是星星闪烁
寂寞一再找到我

我睡着听爱情走过
誓言贴紧耳朵
自己不说却还听说
明天你的经过
我醒着听爱情走过
借场大雨滂沱
忘记很多清晰更好
当爱到过度喧哗沉默

离不开他

音乐嘀嗒嘀嗒嘀嗒
舞步踢踏踢踏踢踏
每一步都是悲伤的挣扎
带着牵挂
谁都不想先停下
我穿着纯白的薄纱
跟着他旋转在灯下
知道是最后一次拥着他
日出后就应该
试着忘了要试着忘了他
我离不开他
也留不住他
心像空荡大厅
一切就要蒸发
我离不开他
风留不住沙
远去里的牵挂
是思念的时差
跟寂寞对话
我留不住他
我还在想他
现在好想他好想他

你走天橋，我走地下道

陽光照耀不到你的心像冰冷冷的地窖
把我心燃燒也得不到擁抱
所有爭吵讓一切的美好停在我的手錶
慢慢的消耗消失在每分每秒

把你握牢卻捏碎了真心無法做比較
就算我愛的很霸道
看你走上了天橋我走下了地下道
你和我的愛情就遺落在街角
看你越過分隔島
我轉進單行道一路把過去甩掉
忘了曾經說過要一起到老

你說過要一起到老
你的聲音我聽不到
你的美好我看不到
你的愛情我等不到

所有爭吵讓一切的美好停在我的手錶
慢慢的消耗消失在每分每秒
把你握牢卻捏碎了真心無法做比較
就算我愛的很霸道
看你走上了天橋我走下了地下道
你和我的愛情就遺落在街角
看你越過分隔島
我轉進單行道一路把過去甩掉
忘了曾經說過要一起到老

我的眼睛已模糊失焦
在這條曾經說過要一起走的幸福大道

看你走上了天橋我走下了地下道
你和我的愛情就遺落在街角
看你越過分隔島
我轉進單行道一路把過去甩掉
忘了曾經說過要一起到老

你說過要一起到老
你的聲音我聽不到
你的美好我看不到
你的愛情我等不到(一起到老)

你說過要一起到老
你的聲音我聽不到
你的美好我看不到
你的愛情我等不到(一起到老)

掌纹

在我的手心你落下的眼淚很冰
晶瑩的淚滴輕輕滑過我的一生
春去春又回我走過的孤獨很黑
難忘那一刻你走進生命的瞬間

我不信命我信愛情是沒有理由
悲歡的注定在我的掌紋中你在那裡
如此的清晰沒有輸贏你是我的命

在我的手心你落下的眼淚很冰
晶瑩的淚滴輕輕滑過我的一生
春去春又回我走過的孤獨很黑
難忘那一刻你走進生命的瞬間

我不信命我信愛情是沒有理由
悲歡的注定在我的掌紋中你在那裡
如此的清晰沒有輸贏你是我的命

我不信命
我信命中你給的每個考驗和奇蹟
在我的掌紋中安身立命是否願意
張開手你回應
我不信命我不信命我只信你

Forever Love

2009-08-03T17:10:00.001+08:00

愛妳　不是因為妳的美而已　我越來越愛妳　每個眼神觸動我的心
因為妳讓我看見forever 才了解自己　未來這些日子　要好好珍惜

愛我　有些痛苦　有些不公平　如果真的愛我　不是理所當然的決定
感到妳的呼吸在我耳邊　像微風神奇　溫柔的安撫　我的不安定
所以我要　每天研究妳的笑容 Oh 多麼自然

Forever love　Forever love　我只想用我這一輩子去愛妳
從今以後　妳會是所有　幸福的理由

愛情　是場最美最遠的旅行　沿途雨季泥濘　偶爾阻礙我們的前進
感到妳的體溫在我懷裡　像陽光和絢　巧妙的融化　我的不安定
不可思議　證明我愛妳的理由 Oh 多麼自然

妳感動的眼睛　我沉默的聲音　彷彿就是最好的證明
就讓我再說一次　I love you oh (直到永遠)

Forever love　Forever love 我只想用我這一輩子去愛妳
從今以後　妳會是所有　幸福的理由　Forever love
Forever love　Forever love

What if...?

2009-08-02T22:00:00.000+08:00

What if I did not send that message in the morning?

What if I decided to wait til I receive your message?

What if I was super sick til I can't stand and sleep straight away?

What if you were just bathing but not playing?

What if I am not worried bout your safety at all?

What if I have more confidence in myself?

What if I did not demand that you must call me every night?

What if I can bear with your 'forgetfulness'?

What if I did not feel important at all before this?

What if I am not serious with you?

What if we did not even start?

What if we did not exist in each other life?

MAD

2009-07-29T20:10:00.000+08:00

It had been a long time since I updated my blog. =P I was actually kinda busy, esp these few days. i started teaching again!!!

If I ever say that teaching that 2 Std 2 classes was a nightmare, I was totally wrong...

I know what is call nightmare after teaching this Std 5 class. Gosh... I am even their form teacher. I hafta teach errr.... 6 subjects: BC, Moral, Mathematics (both English n Chinese), Civic, KH and Kajian Tempatan. T.T

When I got into the class, it was a total mess... Every1 was walking all around, talking and playing (typical primary school students though...). They totally ignored me as if I was not present. T.T After I managed to make them settle down (for less than 10 minutes I think...), I realized that their actual form teacher left me a lot of work. She did not collect their exercise books and workbook back to mark for like 2 weeks, and she gave them a lot of hw which she has not discussed.

So, I tried my best to discuss all the exercises with them these few days and I had not finished while their exam is next week. GREAT... After all those discussions, they hand in all their books and let me check, another heavy work load for me.

Then, this crap came. This morning, a teacher ( Sorry, dunno her name. =P) came to me, telling me that the teacher asked her to bring back some exercise books. I was kinda happy 'cos the students finally got back their diary(hw) and do not need to write on separate piece of paper anymore. I was so bloody shocked when I scan through the pile of books. WTH??? She did not even mark!!! I was cursing, cursing and cursing... Gosh... How can some1 be so damn irresponsible?! She should at least spped up and complete half of her work if she knows that she is going to give birth. What if you are pregnant? It's your job kay??? She can even get her pay for doing nothing. UNFAIR la, my pay is so damn low wei... T.T

Then, my students came complaining to me that she has not even gave them any examples on the types of essay that are coming out in exam. FINE!!! I am forced to give them 4 essays this week, meaning they will go haywire and curse me all the week. This also means that I need to mark 4 x 41 essays this week!!!!!!!!!!!! 164 essays!!! This is nothing if their writings are okay, but theirs are typical CAKAR AYAM... T.T I followed the teacher's way of giving them those important points, which is just like note expansion. SWTZ... Then, I hafta read out the sample essay, TWICE for them to copy down. I was like, what is the pt of giving those points? K, nvm. I just finished marking their 1st essay with me, and guess what, I GOT A SERIOUS HEADACHE. How can they make sooooooooo many mistakes wehn 80% of the essays were written down on the white board and 100% of the essay was read out TWICE.

And now, I still have 41 moral workbooks, 41 chinese workbook, 41 maths exe books and 41 diaries to mark!!! I AM SO GONNA GO CRAZY soon, real soon... 'Cos, there are more to come tmr... T.T

But since something came up to9, I will stop marking now and give my brain, eyes and hand a rest. Seriously worn out... Can't even play piano now, not to say tired, I am not even in the mood now.

18th Birthday!!!

2009-07-11T14:00:00.000+08:00

Victor asked me: "What is so happy bout being 18???". I was like, right, why am I getting so excited for being 18-year-old.

Perhaps cos I am legally an adult? Or I can finally watch any movies that I want? Ok, that's crap and its LAME. I just don't know why. But can't ppl be happy without reason??? =P I only know that my birthday for this year is definitely not an ordinary one.

Lets see...

8th of JULY
RED BOX, SUNWAY PYRAMID
Me, Yee Eng, Jia Yong, Han-Vern, Pek Peng, Fah Keen, Kevin

Yee Eng and Jia Yong

Han-Vern and Pek Peng

Me and Kevin

Me and Keen

When I was searching for songs, the song 'Tonight' suddenly sounds like a birthday song. I was shocked when I saw the waiter bringing in a birthday cake. Then, I saw Jia Yong coming in. He was not supposed to be there since he told me he had work, which he really had. But he rushed there and managed to reach there on time. Hehe.

The cake was a Marshmallow Cheese Cake which they got from ZEN. Yeng purposely bought it 'cos she knows that I love marshmallow. Hehe.

Anyway, really THANKS them for giving me a surprise, I am really very very happy!!! =P

9th of JULY
COFFEE CONNEXION
Me, Lynn, Chiam

Its not really a celebration though, just a gathering, a really small one, for 3 of us. Hehe. Topics that we talked about basically revolves around some1, not me though. However, its P&C. So nothing much to talk about here. =P

Ohya, Lynn got me a bday present le. Hehe. Chiamy paid for the lunch and that will be the present for both me n lynn. TQ Chiamy n Lynn!!

Present from Lynn and a hand-made bday card, I get it every year. I LOVE YOU Lynn!!!

10th of JULY
SUNWAY PYRAMID
11-5: Me, Hon, Drey (you may say: "WHY 3 ppl???" My answer: Dunno.)
5-9: Me, Parents, Katherine, Drey

Me and Audrey waiting for shuttle bus

The day started badly but ended sweetly. Will not talk much bout why its started badly, just every1 involved made some mistakes. Since it can be solved in the end, i will just forget about it. =P We did not do anything much that day, just walked around and went for a movie, ICE AGE 3.

Me and Dear. 1st time celebrating birthday as couple. =P

Mango Delight

Chocolate Indulgence

When my parents reached, we went to Tony Roma's for dinner. The food was quite nice and kinda large. 5 of us shared 4 main course and still could not manage to finish everything. =PMe and Katherine

Drey bought me a necklace and a ring. Love the ring though its kinda loose. Haha.
Dear bought me a long sleeve top from Romp.
He gave me a surprise too. Dear messaged me when I was having dinner, asking me to check my bag. I was really shocked when I saw the necklace and the hp strapper in my bag. Shocked for 2 reasons. 1stly, I really dunno that he bought that. 2nd reason is a secret. Haha. He bought it when he left me and drey to shop alone and put it in my bag when he said that he wanna see what is in my bag. =P THANK YOU DEAR~

The words on it is soooo touching... T.T Hope its true. =P

Finally, Thank You to every1 who wishes me thru msgs, facebook, messenger and blog. Feel really warm and sweeeeeet~ *hugs*

Choices

2009-07-02T23:00:00.000+08:00

Why must people make choices???

Why are there so may decisions to make???

I thought I had already made up my mind that I will go to IMU and do not consider bout Nottingham anymore but I can't.

Overall, Nottingham is still better...

But now, financial is a problem but parents are a bigger problem.

Me myself is another problem.

Gosh, why must there be so many challenges for us???

Ya, I know its a miracle but do we need so many tests???

The Week as A Teacher

2009-07-01T14:03:00.000+08:00

Tiring

Exhausted

FUN!!!

It's tiring and exhaustive 'cos I hafta mark tonnes of activity books and exes. I also need to keep the class quiet and get their attention which is SUPER DIFFICULT. They can never be quiet for more than 5 minutes and they can't sit still. They must move around, talk, argue and even fight. Things got better when I started to use cane and threatening them.

It's FUN 'cos those students are really cute. They always volunteer to help to carry books though sometimes it may be really annoying when they came out in groups of 10 or more. They also love to report everything that a student does in class to the teacher, from pupils who talk to those who did not do homework and from those who scolded other students to those playing in the class. The sentence to make them return to their places is 'OK, I get it, I will scold them.'. They will never stop if I say 'Just ignore them.'. Haha.

One day, when I went into a better class, students start gathering around my table and ask me questions.

Q1:
Students(S):How old are you???
Me: You guess.
S: 20?
Me: No.
S: 40 a???
Me: I AM NOT THAT OLD!!! I am only 18. T.T

Q2:
S: Are you from China???
Me: What makes you think so??
S: You speak like ppl from China.
Me: ...

Q3:
S: Do you know a guy name XXX from class 2J?
Me: Yes.
S: You scolded him today?
Me: Yes, basically, I scold him everyday.
S: Do you know? He is my BF.
Me: WAT?! ( Thought she wanna scold me and I WAS SHOCKED. They are only Std 2 le...)
S: Yea, I don't love him anymore, although he still love me very much. He is annoying.
Me: I did not even know what is BF when I was at your age.
S: But many girls in our class have BF d o. Like this, this and this... (Started pointing names on my name list.)
Me: I am 'impressed'.

My Table, clean right??? All the books are on the floor. =P

My Timetable. Wed, Thurs and Fri is TIRING!!!

My New Identity: TEACHER

2009-06-22T15:00:00.000+08:00

I am going to start teaching tomorrow...

Nervous wei...

I will be teaching in my primary school.

I was supposed to start working on 13th of July, which is after my birthday(applicants must be 18 and above. I am tooooo young =P) but a few teachers have to leave earlier for thier further studies. So, i need to substitute them for a week until they manage to find other teachers (I am not counted as a teacher yet, I guess?) .

And, the most shocking news is, I am going to teach BM!!!! Gosh... I seriously don't like BM due to my stupid SPM results. 3B for BM. T.T But luckily, I will be teaching Std 1 and 2. =P I LOVE KIDS.^^

However, when I start working officially on 13th, I may be teaching Std 5 Mandarin. It may not be too tough, but I did not even know their syllabus... Guess I need to go to the book store to look for some reference book and get myself prepared. Imagining an A-Levels student looking back at Std 5 textbook... Hmmm...

Just hope that those students will not make fun of me in the next half year and I hope I can control them...

So, will not be dealing with any Further Maths or Chemistry in the next half year, but loads of BC workbook to mark. Will there be any exam papers for me too??? I wonder... =P

Tinkerbell

2009-06-18T17:16:00.000+08:00

I was driving around a housing area when I saw this. Luckily the traffic light just turned red. =P

Alone...

Found her another half...

Happy family!!

The shape of these clouds reminds me of Tinkerbell. =P

Plans for the coming 6 months.

2009-06-10T04:00:00.000+08:00

OMG OMG OMG!!! I finally finished my one and a half yr A-Levels course!!!

I am sooooooo happy now, no more suffering and stressing out. (for half a year only la, but still its a vyvyvy long holiday right?)

I guess I am so gonna miss all my friends. Most of them are not stayin here after A-Levels, all going to the UK, Singapore and Australia. Guys to Singapore for engineering and girls to the UK for actuarial science and those econs-related courses. They will require Further Maths for their course, but I am going for Pharmacy which do not need Further Maths. So means, I take Further Maths just for the sake of taking and trying out... Nvm la, I love FM so still, its FUN!!!

Now, I will need to plan how to fully utilize my looooooong holidays. What can I do???

1. Slack at home.

2. Learn how to cook. I can't be cooking maggi and making sandwich only lo... So, gonna force my parents to teach me how to cook. At least my dad agreed and gave me full support. Hope I won't mess up the whole kitchen, I won't let dear's curse comes true. =P

3. Read manga.

4. Hmmm... Perhaps, watch dramas? I had only watched a few dramas since last year, made me feel so outdated...

5. Working??? Becoming a tutor and piano teacher will be a very good option but I am very lazy and I need a car!!!

6. Becoming cousins' tutor--- A MUST!!! Been promising them since last year...

7. I wanna go swimming everyday!!! My membership is going to expire soon, so hafta use their facility to the max. But too bad, mom will say:" I am busy." T.T

8. Study??? Pick up some Bio stuffs so that I will not need to be so stressed after starting the course. Can't change my kiasu character...

9. Making decisions. Which Uni shud I go??? IMU or Monash? IMU will be 2+2 or 2.5+1, Monash will be 4 yrs in M'sia. Hmmm... Headache la...

10. Go out with friends. Must spend some time with them before they leave. Must meet up with ex-CHSians, Miss them soooooo much. Did not see Lynn and Chiamy for mths d la. So, no matter how, must force them out.

11. Gonna plan how to celebrate my b'day, though there is still a month b4 my b'day. Haha. Asked Yee to stay over my hse durin my b'day week so that we can celebrate. I want a special birthday this year!!!

There are so many things to do wei... But now, I am VERY BORED!!! SIEN... I want to go out with friends and dear!!!

第十六天---想念

2009-06-06T03:00:00.000+08:00

忽然，发现我好像已经慢慢忘记你的样子，你的声音。。。

真的真的不知道为什么。。。

也许真的已经太久没见到你了，十六天对我来说真的有点漫长。。。

不过，再过一星期，应该就会再见面了吧。。。

会是在那里见面呢？应该还是那个每一次见面的地方吧。。。

虽然好像是告诉你会改地点，但原本的计划应该是取消了。。。

还在记忆中的余温，应该可以陪我度过这几天。。。

其实想一想，这也算是一种训练吧。。。

如果以后出国了，见面的时间变得更少了，至少也不会不习惯。。。

看着照片，想着想着，又哭了。。。

怎么最近泪腺这么发达呢？

大概是生病，考试压力再加上药物的影响吧。。。

~王子公主谁能逃得过痛苦，能够勇敢爱下去是最好的礼物~

Explosion

2009-05-30T16:00:00.000+08:00

I should have be prepared for this explosion,

It is something that you can't avoid,

When you are getting over the boundary,

Perhaps, this bomb is like a tilt fuse or a mercury tilt switch,

A force of jerk causes the tilt fuse to tilt more,

And the mercury will slide down,

Closing the electric circuit on the other end of the tube,

Detonating the bomb.

Now, tears act as the fire extinguisher,

Putting out the fire,

Incompletely...

When I search among the debris after the explosion,

I realized that only LOVE survive,

Enduring the small but painful wound,

Feeling of missing him is badly injured,

So does the confident we had...

Luckily, they do survive.

Helping to rebuild everything,

Hope that there will not be such an explosion,

Triggered by some tiny issues anymore

Though its 100% impossible.

Anyway, sorry for tilting the fuse.

我的心也在隐隐作痛着。。。

FYI...

Mercury switches consist of one or more sets of electrical contacts in a sealed glass envelope which contains a bead of mercury. The envelope may also contain air, an inert gas, or a vacuum. Gravity is constantly pulling the drop of mercury to the lowest point in the envelope. When the switch is tilted in the appropriate direction, the mercury touches a set of contacts, thus completing the electrical circuit through those contacts. Tilting the switch the opposite direction causes the mercury to move away from that set of contacts, thus breaking that circuit. (Wikipedia)

I Am Confused

2009-05-26T18:31:00.000+08:00

I don't know how to describe my feelings now. Nervous? Down? Fear? Fed up? Disappointed? Regretting? I don't know. It's confusing. I can't sort it out and I can't find the source. Maybe there are too many sources...

I am unable to control my temper and the mood is always oscillating between two extremities, just like the whether. It can be a super hot day at this moment and changes into a heavy storm the next second.

Everyone is busy with exams now so just leave them alone and disturb them with my problems after exam. Just focus on exam now and think about all those complicated things later.

I guess I am just tired, mentally and physically.

I did it again

2009-05-15T15:54:00.000+08:00

I seriously don't know what is wrong with me. When I care for some1, I just want them to follow my way to manage time. I do not like to waste my time and so, I can't stand when I see the people whom I love wasting their time.

I had once irritated some1 I love by controlling him/her too much. I try to get him/her to follow my style and be more serious in studies. I just do not know that this will actually made some1 got mad and tried even harder to go against me.

I tried my best not to comment on others' lifestyle and the way they use to study. I tried to ignore when I see them slacking and doing last minute work or revision. At most, I will just try to advise and not being too harsh.

Too bad, I repeated that mistake again. I am just pathetic. I should not have scolded him/her. It's their habit and if they are fine with it, why do I need to be so kpc and interrupt their lifestyle? But I just beh tahan. They have the brains and just wasted it; they have the time and again, they just let it flow away. GOSH...

Anyway, words said cannot be taken back and I do not want to take it back also, so I can only say SORRY for being soooooo harsh. I will not do that again. Though I feel that a barrier is being build between us now, nothing can be done. My EQ is just too low. Just hope that I wont cross the border line again.

Miserable

2009-05-13T16:00:00.000+08:00

I’d been very down these 2 days. I found out something and some other things happened. My ‘ability’ of thinking too much ‘contributed’ to my feelings too. I just felt unsecure and was wondering whether the same thing will happen to me. The super perfect timing is one of the reasons that make me think and feel that way. The another reason is I started to get serious but still have not fully get away from the extremely stupid thought that had been bothering me for months. I am just pathetic…

I am just too sensitive, even an insignificant incident can trigger my nerve and made me highly alert, thinking of the possible consequences or reasons that cause this. Is it really because I am too sensitive or I just cannot believe in anyone, not even myself? I made the choice and I still doubt whether it is a right choice. I just can’t be 100% sure, never once in my life. I only know that there are 2 distances that need me to overcome, a real distance and a virtual one. (Kambateh, Sophia! =P)

There is another thing that bothers me. Should I join the class trip??? I wanted to join but they will be going to Pulau Paya for snorkeling which I do not feel like going due to some reasons. If I go for the trip and do not join them for the snorkeling part, I may be left alone on Pulau Langkawi. If I do not go for the trip, then I will have no more chance to join them and I had already promised Nich that I will go. Gosh, how am I going to decide???!!!

Anyway, A2 final is finally here. I hope I can finish all the PYQs on time. I am still kinda blur with my FM Mechanics and Geometric Distribution. If I still can’t overcome all these problems, I will need to say Bye Bye to more than 40 marks. OMG… So, must really study hard this time. Can’t slack too much, been telling myself this but I do not think that I studied much these few days. At least, I did not touch my chemistry and physics PYQ these 2 weeks. =P

Good luck to every A-Levels student who will be sitting for exam starting from 13th of May until 12th of June. I wonder how Cambridge arranges the time table… My paper starts on 18th of May and ends on 8th of June, but only 7 days in that period of time are occupied with exams, and yet, they need to put Chem Paper 4 and Phy Paper 4 on the same day. Whatever, I can’t change it, so I can just take it. GOOD LUCK and ALL THE BEST!!!

Happy Mother's Day!!! =P

2009-05-11T01:00:00.000+08:00

Wishes every mother HAPPY MOTHER’S DAY!!!

Hope every mom stay healthy, pretty and happy!!!

I (LOVE YOU)x1000000000000 MUMMY!!!

Me and Mum

Mummy and Daddy (Daddy tried to make mum looks taller, how considerate... ^^")

It is also me n MH’s 100^thday anniversary too. Time really flies le… Dear, Love you too!!! Just that I love my mom more… =P It’s diff though.

Kings, Queens and Slaves

2009-05-03T00:23:00.000+08:00

When you are rich, you can buy everything, including people’s heart.

But, When you have nothing in your pocket, you are nothing?

You may be the king or queen when you are rich but you will have to wear a mask every day, looking for ways to maintain your ‘power’. But I really wonder who will actually respect you from the bottom of their heart. Yea, maybe there are some people who really feel that you are their god and cannot live a day without you but the rest of your ‘slaves’ are just putting on their own mask in front of you.

Speaking of ‘slaves’, you will need to accept a lot of criticism from people around you, who thinks that they are some super close friends with the king and queen. Their criticism may be true and sincere, but most of them were just crap and rubbish. They do not actually process their words with brain before saying it out loud. Can all these people think before they speak? At least learn how to respect others, even if they are not as ‘sacred’ as your king and queen.

The world is just so cruel that the opinions and suggestions of slaves do not worth even a penny. A word to the kings and queens: Do not ask for others’ opinion when you are not going to consider what they suggested. ‘Cos it really hurts. Slaves have feelings too…

I’ve met a lot of kings and queens before, they might not treat you as a slave in front of people, but you are definitely their slave when they do not need your help to show how popular they are. Kings and queens may always show how much they have done for others but who knows how many % of their ‘effort’ origin from their sincere heart, if they have one…

I may be fake in some circumstances but I am pretty confident that I am far from being a queen. Maybe someone will be objecting this statement, but who cares? I am sure that I am almost immune with all these crap that have been bombarding me for years, continuously.

--You may not be important in king’s and queen’s eye, but you are important to someone that knows how to appreciate you. This is more than enough. - -

Gathering+Date

2009-04-18T23:29:00.000+08:00

I am super happy!!! I had been secreting lots of adrenaline on Friday and I had a sleepless night that day. Finally, most of my closest friends in Form 4 and 5 can gather together.

Before the gathering, I went to CHS to meet flor and her bf. (Since Flor can only reach at 9.30am, dear went to CHS to company me. I am touched but Pity him for sleeping much lesser.) Then we waited there so that we can meet Khee during recess. In the meantime, Flor and her bf were complaining that the weather is so darn hot and they were sweating madly. I wonder why I did not sweat that much and I did not really feel hot. Back to main topic, we went to Khee's class during recess and started chatting. We were insulting See Khee and kept on relate her with 'some1'. She became kinda mad and said that she might not go to the gathering. I tried to persuade her and she said that she will reconsider. (T.T All I can do was just sms her non stop to persuade her. I even asked Flor to help.)

After her recess, me, Flor and her bf walked to the bus stop along Federal Highway. Actually, we were supposed to go to Sunway Pyramid by bus but Flor was just too lazy to walk under the hot sun. So, we went to a nearer bus stop and take taxi.(Cost me 3 bucks, luckilly... But bus will only cost me max RM1. Whatever, why am I complaining?) We called Joyce when we reached there since she was the one who asked us to meet her there as early as possible. We were so speechless when we realised that she was still sleeping. So, we had to shop around and I played the role of a light bulb. (Err, actually, Flor kinda neglected her bf as she was talking to me. =P). Then, we went to meet dear in Mr. Teppanyaki since he was having lunch with CH. We chat and watched Mr. Bean's Holiday there. (SWTZ!!!)

Finally, Jye called and told us that he and Nga had already reached. So, we went to Asian Avenue to meet them and I suggested that we just wait for the rest in MFM. We ordered some starters since we were kinda hungry. Then, Joyce called 'cos she could not find a car park. (^^") I called Khee to ask for her decision. She told me that she has not decided and she was still in school. (WTH?????) After a while, she called again and ask where is the gathering. She sounds excited and so, I suspected something is going on. In just 1 min time, I saw her coming down from the escalator... She had already planned to give me a 'surprise' and of course, Flor is the accomplice. Anyway, I am very happy because Khee finally attended our gathering (according to her, she could not find any excuse to reject 'cos I planned everything based on her suggestions and opinions).

Although only 7 person on the gathering (8 including Flor's bf, Hean), we can still chat from 1 til around 5 pm. I can only say that that short period of time is really not enough. We have too many things to talk about, studies, bf/gfs stuffs, recalling the moments we had in CHS etc.

My best pals during high school. Basically, we gossiped everyday. And yes, we were noisy and we are still noisy now. (Btw, Joyce is so pretty and thin now!! =P) Did you realise that all of us are wearing the same colour? We did not plan it. Its pure coincidence.

I really felt that I had gone back to Form 5 when we started to insult each other, talked crap and shared secrets. The feeling is just too great!!! Of course, the guys ie Dek Ric, Jye and Nga were not really shuang when the girls were talking about secrets that we had been sharing for years. I am so sorry guys, but its girl's talk. =p Then, we took a lot of pictures but actually, most of the time, the girls are running all around taking pictures with the guys. I really pity Hean 'cos he did not join us when we took group photo, instead, he became the photographer.

1st row (from left): Dek Ric, Louis Nga, Sophia, See Khee
2nd row (from left): Yinn Jye, Joyce, Florrie

Fyi, we had our gathering in Manhattan Fish Market and its really expensive. 8 of us spent RM236 there and everyone was complaining. I felt a little guilty 'cos I chose that venue but since there were no objections when I asked them, so I am not blaming myself too much. =P However, the food there is quite nice, not to say super nice though, but its really huge. I shared a seafood platter with Nga and Jye, but we could not finish it. That is why Dek Ric was blaming us for ordering that before he reached. I am sorry Dek Ric, but we were just to hungry. =P

Shocked when we see this...

My calculations...

We continued our chatting session in McD since its not really nice to stay in that restaurant for too long and the guys wanted to eat ice-cream. While they were busy chatting, me and Nga were busy calculating the amount of money that each of us need to pay. I can only say that we were super efficient since we can sort out everything in a short while. (Just ss-ing, its super easy to calculate it... ^^")

Then, they compared me and Nga for our efficiency in organizing a gathering. They were complaining that Nga is inefficient 'cos he has been arranging a badminton game, another form of gathering since last year and nothing is carried out. =P Just hope that he can find a time for that soon. I really want to see how Jye play badminton since Joyce described his skills as, err... Don't know how to describe. =P

When they were about to leave, they asked Hon to come out from ice rink 'cos they wanna see him (?!) since they had not seen him for a long time. (swtz...) However, when he reached, Dek Ric had to leave and every1 just left with him since there are some sort of complicated connections between them. =P Felt so sorry for dear and Khee kept on asking me to say sorry to dear.

After they left, i accompanied Khee for a short while until she chased me away and asked me to go find Hon. She said that she wanted to shop for something and that 'something' turned out to be my b'day present. OMG, its like 3 months before my b'day but still I am super touched 'cos she still remembers my b'day!!! Thank you Khee!!!

So, I went to meet dear and just shopped around Sunway Pyramid. But, No details for our date. =P Its just super sweet and according to dear, its our best date ever (totally agree, even though we did nothing much...) Btw, my dad was supposed to fetch me from pyramid at 9 and he has the habit of fetching me later than the time he told me. However, he was early that day!!! (WTH?!) Its like 2 months or 50+ days to be more exact before I can see dear again. Hmmm, nevermind, time flies, 2 months will pass very quickly. (But hope that I have enough time to revise.)

Thank you dear, for giving me a very sweet 4-5 hrs date!!!

Friday, please walk faster, will you?

2009-04-16T10:24:00.000+08:00

OMG OMG, I am sooooooo excited these few days. I can finally meet my CHS gang!!! I planned a gathering and everyone that I 'invited' are free!!! This is such a miracle... =P

Even though this is only a small gathering which will only be attended by 8 person including me, I still feel super happy because it had been 2 years since we last sit around and chat. So, Friday, can you please come faster??? I am getting impatient... =P

Another reason for me being so excited is I can finally meet dear this Friday too. I had not seen him for 2 weeks(or more?). Though it may be a little tiring for going out from 8 am to (maybe) 9pm, I know I will enjoy my Friday to the max.

Hope that everything will go smoothly this Friday and of course, hope that I can manage to solve my problem. Wish me luck!!!

After the outing on Friday, I can also go Redbox with Vern and gang on Saturday. I had not joined them for karaoke for months I guess and I really miss the mic. There are so many new and nice songs recently, so I will definitely enjoy the 3 hours in Redbox. Hehe... =P

Increase the Internal Energy?

2009-04-15T22:29:00.000+08:00

Khee reminded me about something important that I tried to forget today...
We had a chat and she asked me how is life, of course she will not miss the important question (guess yourself =P). I started telling her those important things and all my feelings. She gave me an unexpected reply:

I can tell that you are really unhappy. You have all those negative feelings and thoughts whenever I asked you about that.

Yea, she got the point. I tried to forget how much I tried to tolerate and adapt to the totally opposite lifestyle. When I thought that I will give up, something will just happen right in time to prevent me from giving up. When I finally found something that can keep me going, some other problem rises. It is like a cycle and it will never stop unless someone stops it. Most of my 'internal energy' had been lost through all these repeated processes where W ‹ 0. I may also be selfish, thinking that no work is done on the system when there is work being done. Furthermore, some of the work done did not bring about happiness but suffering to the system.

Anyway,
1st Law of Thermodynamics:

∆u= Q+W

So, lets continue to supply some heat energy to or do some work on this system.(Please do not penalize me for bad physics, if this law is not applicable here. =P)

The Ten Sentences

2009-04-14T21:13:00.000+08:00

第一句

如果我们之间有1000步的距离
If there are 1000 steps between us,

你只要跨出第1步
You will only need to take the first step and

我就会朝你的方向走其余的999步
I will take the remaining 999 steps to reach you.

~It is easy to say that, but how many people are willing to do that?~

第二句
　　
通常愿意留下来跟你争吵的人
Normally the one who is willing to stay behind and quarrel with you,

才是真正爱你的人
is the one who really loves you.
　　
第三句
　　
付出真心　才会得到真心
You will need to love someone whole-heartedly before having someone to love you the same way.

却也可能伤得彻底
However, you may be deeply hurt in the process.

保持距离　就能保护自己
You can protect yourself by keeping a distance,

却也注定永远寂寞
but you are predestined to be lonely forever.

~Totally agree. I used to be the latter and now trying to love someone whole-heartedly, will it work?~

第四句
　　
有时候　不是对方不在乎你
Sometimes, it may not be that your another half does not care about you,

而是你把对方看得太重
it is only because they are too important to you.

~Maybe, but don't they feel that you are important too?~

第五句
　　
朋友就是把你看透了　还能喜欢你的人
Friends are people who can see through you but still like you.
　　
第六句
　　
就算是believe　中间也藏了一个lie
There is a 'lie' within 'believe'.

~Yup, that's why don't ever believe too much in what others say, no matter who they are.~　　

第七句
　　
真正的好朋友
Real best friends

并不是在一起就有聊不完的话题
are not a group of people who have unlimited topics when they are together,

而是在一起　就算不说话 也不会感到尴尬
instead, they are a group of people who will not feel embarrassed even if they do not have any topics to share when they are together.
　　
第八句
　　
没有一百分的另一半
There is no 100% partner

只有五十分的两个人
but only two 50% person.

第九句
　　
为你的难过而快乐的　是敌人
Your rival: The person who is happy when you are sad.

为你的快乐而快乐的　是朋友
Your friend: Someone who is happy when you are happy.

为你的难过而难过的 就是那些　该放进心里的人
People that should be kept in heart: Someone who is sad when you are down.

~I am lucky, I've already found many people whom I should keep in my heart.~　
　
第十句
　　
冷漠　有时候并不是无情
Sometimes, being emotionless does not mean hard-hearted,

只是一种避免被伤害的工具
it may just be a way to avoid yourself from being hurt.

Happy Birthday Drey!

2009-04-13T19:15:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my

DEAREST SIS,

AUDREY

who just turns 17 today!!!

May all your wishes come true!!!

Btw, this is the present that I gave her...

A set of tarot cards with a guidebook... =P

It's Just Mocks... T.T

2009-04-11T22:04:00.000+08:00

I still can’t stop blaming myself for screwing up my mocks. Why was I panic??? Though it’s just Mocks and it’s not important since I had already got my forecast results, still every exam is very important to me.

I seriously feel very stress when I know that others are better than me and yes, this is pure kiasu. Maybe this is the main reason that make me panic, another reason is because I feel that I had not prepared enough and kept on thinking negatively that I will screw my exam. Plus, parents have high expectations in my results and this really put me under great pressure.
Nichelle just reminded me a thing that Mr. Goh told us before:

“Life follows the sine graph, once u are at the top at a certain period, u will deteriorate.”

I guess I am at the lowest point of the graph now and I need to work real hard to get back to the highest point. I also need to put a capacitance and a full wave rectifier to make the graph smoother to make sure that I won’t drop to the minimum point and maintain at a certain level.

What I need to do now is study more and practice more, must read through everything for at least 3 times. I guess it’s possible??? =P

Anyway, I just wanna thank my friends especially my darling, Nichelle and dear for listening to me. I know I am kinda stubborn for not listening to what you all told me over and over. I hope I really learned my lesson this time.

P/S: Vern, do not complain that my blog is all about studies again o. ‘Cos my life is really revolving around books. Haha.